fade away love

All that you have told me, All that you made me believe is fading away. Today I'm realizing you never meant a word you said. The worm is eating up and killing it all, its taking control of all my thoughts it created doubts i never meant, and leaving me with emptiness. Loneliness has never left, when shall it change? why should it change? If i cant run to the one i want, then in who shall i find the refuge i seek? ill just run away, hide beneath the truth.... the feeling is greater than ever before why shall i go through this once more? tell me today or forget me then. push away love...push away pain... I'm giving up I'M saving my self from the pain i once had felt....

Maybe what I thought... Is wrong.. But the feeling is strong.... I have my many doubts... But don't we.all yesterday was yesterday... Today is today and tomorrow is still to be.... My once doubts have now become certainties. My once choices have now become decisions. My many feelings, joys and pain have taught me life lessons that at the time of... Might not have felt like good was to come from it. But down my life line years past the pain became a strength the lessons became tools to overcome the obstacles life may put on my way.

THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THINGS IN LIFE HURT. A BEAUTIFUL ROSE ATTRACTING TO THE EYE BUT DANGEROUS TO HOLD,WITH OUT A PAINFUL THORN STABBING PASSED YOUR SKIN. ITS JUST A THORN IN THE MOST DELICATE FORM

La vita bella

When you really want something, sometimes you have to swim a little deeper.... You can't give up just because things don't come easy..... You have to overcome the obstacles and face your fears.... But in the end, it's all worth while. Life is full of ups and downs, but if you believe in yourself you will always come through with flying colors.... Value life, friendship and love, and never underestimate yourself....

Dear Father

Dear Father, God, Best friend. YOU HAVE CHANGED MY LIFE FOREVER, AND I MIGHT NOT BE THE BEST DAUGHTER AND OUR RELATIONSHIP MIGHT NOT BE THE STRONGEST ONE. AND I URGE FOR THAT TO CHANGE YOU DIED FOR ME YOU SACRIFICED YOUR ONLY SON FOR ME, SO THAT I WOULD HAVE ETERNAL LIFE, YOUR LOVE YOUR GRACE LORD ITS SO AMAZING YOUR ABILITY TO FORGIVE AND GIVE PEACE. ITS AMAZING I HAVE NO WORDS NOR EVER WILL TO THANK YOU FOR WHAT YOU HAVE DONE FOR ME, MANY LESSONS I LEARNED THE HARD WAY.. BUT LORD I LEARNED... I PRAY YOU GUIDE MY EVERY MOVE, MY EVERY STEP, MY EVERY ACTION, LEAD ME TO WHERE I AM TO BE. HELP ME BE A BETTER PERSON HELP ME ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANT CHANGE AND HELP ME CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN. I WANT MY EVERYDAY TO BE DEVOTED TO YOU THAT WHAT I DO MAY BE TO PLEASE YOU. BRING THE PEACE TO MY HEART TO FORGIVE MY SELF FOR WHAT I HAVE DONE THAT WAS WRONG THE COURAGE TO ACCEPT THE CONSEQUENCES TO COME FROM MY EVERY ACTION AND THE WISDOM TO DO THINGS RIGHT FROM NOW AND ON. I PRAY AND THANK YOU FOR ALL THE PEOPLE WHO ARE THERE FOR ME THAT I LOVE SO DEAR ,MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS, THANK YOU FOR THE BLESSINGS AND JOY YOU BRING TO MY LIFE EVERYDAY. I PRAY YOU FORGIVE MY PAST GUIDE MY PRESENT AND FUTURE. MY LIFE IS YOURS DO AS YOU PLEASE WITH IT. AMEN...

Always Go Back

Many people tend to go back to the past, due to missed memories and lost long loves, willing to jeopardize what today has given them, risking to lose it all and end up back with nothing, broken hearts and broken dreams. The past turns into a brighter tomorrow, only if we learn. The past must stay behind and lessons must be put to act, lessons from yesterday used to help today, lessons of today used to help tomorrow. Living in the present might not always be sight, yet with the hope of yesterday for a bright next day, to carry us threw the old dark days. Must we learn to let go of it all, not to drag it in. Let go forget and move on, yet incapable of it we carry it with us, destroying our lives when we could have rebuilt it. We humans cant let go, why? we ask, no easy answer. We just know we cant live life today with out yesterdays sorrow. Not forgetting nor forgiving will drag us all back one more step. Forgive to forget how does that work?, we all hold grudges against those who hurt. Treat others right for today is a bright new day, why should we, after all we have been hurt, those who hurt us yesterday might hurt us today, be nice to them? that wouldn't be fair. I do still remember, i lost everything, what more could i lose?. I did gain some wisdom from all my great falls, but wait just a minute, i now see the change,yesterday was a weakness due to my lacks, today is a new day for a good bright new start. We are unable to forget yesterdays pain, but strong enough to overcome sorrow and them. Living a day at a time might just be the answer to all of our pain. Don't worry about who hurt you yesterday, pay close attention today, so that tomorrow won't be a replay of who hurt you one day. - Regina A Xelhuantzi