fade away love

All that you have told me, All that you made me believe is fading away. Today I'm realizing you never meant a word you said. The worm is eating up and killing it all, its taking control of all my thoughts it created doubts i never meant, and leaving me with emptiness. Loneliness has never left, when shall it change? why should it change? If i cant run to the one i want, then in who shall i find the refuge i seek? ill just run away, hide beneath the truth.... the feeling is greater than ever before why shall i go through this once more? tell me today or forget me then. push away love...push away pain... I'm giving up I'M saving my self from the pain i once had felt....

Maybe what I thought... Is wrong.. But the feeling is strong.... I have my many doubts... But don't we.all yesterday was yesterday... Today is today and tomorrow is still to be.... My once doubts have now become certainties. My once choices have now become decisions. My many feelings, joys and pain have taught me life lessons that at the time of... Might not have felt like good was to come from it. But down my life line years past the pain became a strength the lessons became tools to overcome the obstacles life may put on my way.