fade away love

All that you have told me, All that you made me believe is fading away. Today I'm realizing you never meant a word you said. The worm is eating up and killing it all, its taking control of all my thoughts it created doubts i never meant, and leaving me with emptiness. Loneliness has never left, when shall it change? why should it change? If i cant run to the one i want, then in who shall i find the refuge i seek? ill just run away, hide beneath the truth.... the feeling is greater than ever before why shall i go through this once more? tell me today or forget me then. push away love...push away pain... I'm giving up I'M saving my self from the pain i once had felt....